I'm Lost Until I Find Myself Again

I feel awfully sad, I miss someone I shouldn't and have spent the last few hours reading past messages and writing poetry. I usually spill thoughts like these into my journal but I wanted to write on my blog because I feel nostalgic and want posts to be like they used to be. So, this is me, raw and unedited. Please be gentle. I'm a delicate flower.

For the last few days, since I finished work, I haven't left my bed much. When I do it's to either get food, use the bathroom, or have a mini dance party because they always put me in a better mood. I don't want to say I'm getting bad again because I don't want that to be the case, but I was so happy at the beginning of the week and now I just feel empty. A part of it's because I'm back in that place where I have to decide what I want to do next with my life and sometimes I don't have a clue. I'm lost until I find myself again. I just desperately want to travel, although the thought of that sends my anxiety into overdrive. I hope one day that changes. There are so many places I want to visit and people I want to see. Until then, I'll be dreaming of oversea adventures, figuring out where the next chapter of my life will take me, and missing old friends who probably won't even read this.

Don't worry though, I'll be okay tomorrow. After a night like this, things are always better by the time the sun is up. I also have so many things to look forward to and am still writing which makes me happy. I just need some time to pull myself out of this funk and then I'll be back to being myself again.

1 comment:

  1. Sometimes time is all you need, don't force yourself to feel better.
    Aleeha xXx